its hard to admit you may be broken
life depends on acceptance
and acceptance depends on your life
its scary to speak about problems
what if they think i'm weird? or crazy? or they don't like me? or they tell people about my problems? or they use it to there advantage? or if they laugh at me? or anything else?
its a scary concept and hard to deal with
the hardest thing is you don't speak to afraid to talk out because you're worried you're the only one and you will never know if you're not because you cant speak about it
its a vicious circle...

what happens when you just want it to end but are to afraid of any pain?

the fear is here

i have the doctors tomorrow
this may be a breaking moment
will everything i had wanted everything i have not be available?
i fear for the worst.
am i crazy?
i know im scared.

What is this?

Am i crazy?
i feel like i'm losing myself, or am i actually finding myself.
I don't know anymore.
iv lost many friends some i would be insane to lose
maybe i am insane?
what do i do now? its like i'm between a rock and a hard place.