Monday, July 14, 2014
Anger
I have an overwhelming anger that's washed over me with in minutes I don't know if I can control it especially with the added stress of work, let's hope heads don't roll!
Saturday, July 12, 2014
The mind
No corner of the mind is safe
Those amazing thoughts of the times before get washed away with one simple breach of an emotion.
Everything becomes funny and uneasy I find my self in a situation where I don't know what to do but I feel I must do something these intruding thoughts cloud the calming thoughts with a storm of negativity "run away" "leave forever" some days I can't face going home yet there is nothing wrong with my home life... What is this?
Thursday, August 1, 2013
so there i was stood at the counter and everything was fine
untill they couldent print the receipt so i had to wait for them to find away to do it
what was about 10 minutes felt like an hour
i felt like i had 100 eyes looking at me
i got really bothered started sweating with fear
for no apparent reason
god i hate those feelings
glad i got out...
untill they couldent print the receipt so i had to wait for them to find away to do it
what was about 10 minutes felt like an hour
i felt like i had 100 eyes looking at me
i got really bothered started sweating with fear
for no apparent reason
god i hate those feelings
glad i got out...
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
its hard to admit you may be broken
life depends on acceptance
and acceptance depends on your life
its scary to speak about problems
what if they think i'm weird? or crazy? or they don't like me? or they tell people about my problems? or they use it to there advantage? or if they laugh at me? or anything else?
its a scary concept and hard to deal with
the hardest thing is you don't speak to afraid to talk out because you're worried you're the only one and you will never know if you're not because you cant speak about it
its a vicious circle...
life depends on acceptance
and acceptance depends on your life
its scary to speak about problems
what if they think i'm weird? or crazy? or they don't like me? or they tell people about my problems? or they use it to there advantage? or if they laugh at me? or anything else?
its a scary concept and hard to deal with
the hardest thing is you don't speak to afraid to talk out because you're worried you're the only one and you will never know if you're not because you cant speak about it
its a vicious circle...
Monday, July 29, 2013
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
the fear is here
i have the doctors tomorrow
this may be a breaking moment
will everything i had wanted everything i have not be available?
i fear for the worst.
am i crazy?
i know im scared.
this may be a breaking moment
will everything i had wanted everything i have not be available?
i fear for the worst.
am i crazy?
i know im scared.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
What is this?
Am i crazy?
i feel like i'm losing myself, or am i actually finding myself.
I don't know anymore.
iv lost many friends some i would be insane to lose
maybe i am insane?
what do i do now? its like i'm between a rock and a hard place.
i feel like i'm losing myself, or am i actually finding myself.
I don't know anymore.
iv lost many friends some i would be insane to lose
maybe i am insane?
what do i do now? its like i'm between a rock and a hard place.
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